Rant Rant Rant ...

Hey yall . Just want to get something out of my system, so i'll rant about it here. The first thing that's been bothering me is that i feel like such a second rate artist sometimes ( alot ! ) which is why i feel like such an amateur most of the time, even thow i'm been improving.
I love critique, because i want to improve, however, the good kind of critique, notebly from other artist, is hard to get. Some artist are nice enough to answer me when i comment them and my questions when i ask them, but i can't help the feeling that some artist out there just flat out ignore you.
To me, being treated like a second rate artist is even worse of an insult. If i'm an artist, just like you, don't treat me differently because i'm not as good as you, that's just cruel and pointless.
I'm 18, unexperienced, share a scanner with my family who aren't aware of what i draw most of the time, i only have a laptop, no tablet, no mouse, the oldest version of open canvas, a critirium ( pencil ), and two markers ( one 0.4 and one 0.8 ) and i'm short on cash most of the time, and i still try my best to provide some decent looking stuff, so a little respect and equal treatment would be appreciated ( yes, i said i have NO tablet, so my digital works have been done with nothing but my fingers ).
I'm not attacking or pointing fingers towards anybody, i'm just saying i'm nice, not blind and i DON'T FORGET, so if you want treat me like i'm inferior, don't treat me at all !

The other thing i guess that's bothering me is this.
Art doesn't just happen, there's a lot of time and effort that goes into it, and i don't think that some people really seem to understand that. Sure some people take more or less time to do things, but nevertheless time, energy, effort and imagination is necessary, not to mention the distractions, burdens, activities, etc of every day life that bother you most of the time. I can't seem to make people take that seriously, therefore, i feel like i " fail " as an artist.

Lastly, and this might offend some people, i think that some slash is way overdone ! There's way too much DBZ , Naruto, and even X-men slash out there (just to name a few ). I'm not a hypocrite, i admit that it's erotic, it's hot, it's cool, and that i myself will draw some when i'm asked to, but there's a lot of it already, it's kinda getting old.
Some might of noticed, but that's why i slash things that aren't or barely slashed, like F-zero characters, Mortal Kombat characters, yu-gi-oh! "Monsters" and NOT characters, etc.
That also explains my obssession with Original Characters .
They're fresh new characters that bring some welcome distractions from the overabondance of mainstream slash. Daemon, Max Darc, Tai, Drake, Skyboy, Keric, Darek, etc to name of few, i've grown to love. I even have more O.Cs then i can count but i put my Three favourite characters, Justin, Arden and Xy ahead of the pack, but a lot of times i feel like removing all of them from the face of the net because they get NO LOVE !

All of that feels like a vicious cycle that keeps repeating it self to me.
Just posting my thoughts somewhere, hope i get a response or comments from SOMEONE, otherwise what i think will be proved to be true, and that's going to be ugly ...

Anyway, if you were at least considerate enough to read my rant, thanks.



JC said...

Face it, buddy-- there are some snobs out here in netland. I hate to admit it, but sometimes I do share your opinion that some artists out there just might not want to be associated with others (even though we're all doing the same thing.)

But you should also realize that because the internet is so vast and in many ways impersonal, it's very possible that what you may take as a "snub" or "put-down" could really just be an oversight, simple mistake, or in some cases, a typo! What I'm trying to say is that you shouldn't take things in netland personal. Just keep doing what you're doing. You have more fans than you know! ^__^

(Thanks for mentioning Tai!)

Anonymous said...

Kerry,I really like waht you do but it seems as I'm not an artist-just a watcher from a segregate non-speaking english country- I can't really talk about this issue.But I really want you to continue.

Anyway,just note that there's people who REALLY like what you do;you're progressing a lot in a really short time;finally,you have a noble idea,to draw stuff from hot but underused men like Capt.Falcon.That's brave and "vanguardist",and Bara/Yaoi artists like you.

Ah,I think you'll be recognized better when Super Smash Brawl comes out.Luck!